I am very much aware that we make decisions every moment of every day, as I am writing this I am constantly making decisions of what to include, how to phrase different things, and how to properly portray what I would like to convey. But sometimes I wish that decisions could just be made for me. I understand that I have been given the wonderful gift of agency, the ability to be able to make decisions and act as I wish, but sometimes I wonder how much easier it would be if someone just told me what to do. Once I think of how nice it would be to have the decision making process given to someone else I remember that I would lose a lot more than that. My ability to be happy, experience joy, pure joy would also be taken from my grasps. It would be impossible, in the complete definition of that word, to be happy. I would never have experienced sorrow, therefore no joy, all the result of our choices. I would never be able to experience love, towards someone, or receiving that wonderful gift.
Maybe I can suck it up and make some pretty mediocre decisions, which in the eternal perspective is very insignificant.
I watched an interesting video today, one of those gems, the thought provoking kinds.
I am quite glad my parents "brainwashed" me.. I do not know what kind of person I would be without it. I am very grateful for the lessons I have been taught and though I do know I have many things to work on I am happy with who I have become so far - even down to the way I fold my towel.
As mentioned earlier - very scattered, as evident from my scattered thoughts.
... Oh Well.
