Decision Making is Not My Forte

Once again I have neglected my blog. It is a good thing that my life does not depend on this or I would have died a long time ago. I feel like I am very much scattered lately. I am not really sure why but it makes the process of decision making extremely difficult. Definitely to the point that it frustrates me but alas decisions still need to be made.

I am very much aware that we make decisions every moment of every day, as I am writing this I am constantly making decisions of what to include, how to phrase different things, and how to properly portray what I would like to convey. But sometimes I wish that decisions could just be made for me. I understand that I have been given the wonderful gift of agency, the ability to be able to make decisions and act as I wish, but sometimes I wonder how much easier it would be if someone just told me what to do. Once I think of how nice it would be to have the decision making process given to someone else I remember that I would lose a lot more than that. My ability to be happy, experience joy, pure joy would also be taken from my grasps. It would be impossible, in the complete definition of that word, to be happy. I would never have experienced sorrow, therefore no joy, all the result of our choices. I would never be able to experience love, towards someone, or receiving that wonderful gift.

Maybe I can suck it up and make some pretty mediocre decisions, which in the eternal perspective is very insignificant.

I watched an interesting video today, one of those gems, the thought provoking kinds.

I don't really have much to say about it other than the fact that this is incredible. I would love a copy of it. His name is Ethan Metzger and the rest of it speaks for itself.

I am quite glad my parents "brainwashed" me.. I do not know what kind of person I would be without it. I am very grateful for the lessons I have been taught and though I do know I have many things to work on I am happy with who I have become so far - even down to the way I fold my towel.


As mentioned earlier - very scattered, as evident from my scattered thoughts.


... Oh Well.